Ghosts of Blogs Past

Today, maybe because it was the year anniversary of COVID-19 being declared a global pandemic, I was thinking about my blogs of the past. I had one called "Tell Me Lize," punning my name with a Fleetwood Mac lyric, while I was in graduate school.

It was similar to this one in that it was a tell-all hodge-podge of anything that I wanted to write—poetry, emotional outpourings after a break up, song lyrics, musings, theories, short stories, cultural analysis. I searched for it recently, though, and it either doesn't exist anymore or I can't access it... or possibly did I erase it in a fit of vulnerability? I simply can't remember. I thought things never disappeared from the internet. I guess that's only for things you don't want to remain. Precious things disappear into the ether.

I also used to blog on myspace. I can't access that account either; I guess it's too old? Or maybe it's because my old hotmail address is defunct. I can't even remember what era that was. Was it around the same time? Or before? It's wild to me that I have swaths of my young adulthood that I can't remember and that has sort of disappeared deep into the subconscious.

I hope against hope that one day I figure out a way to get both of those old blogs back. Would love to have a peek into my 25 year old mind again, if that's how old I was.

Tom